Changes

IMG_20130721_133940Everyone wants it, very few of us actually like it when it happens.

Change

I think that if you ask 100 people if the like “change” 90% would tell you that they are in favour and they actually seek change in their lives and work.

The reality is that very often change “happens” and we are not ready for it. Sometimes change is imposed from other people and we are just not happy with it, instead of embracing something new and potentially good, we prefer to stick to what we know already, even if it doesn’t make us happy.

It’s a very serious and difficult struggle, I believe that every one of us has gone through it, more than once in his/her life.

I think that I am quite resistant to change, especially when it leads to unknown paths, very different from the ones that I walked before. On the other side some of the decisions and the things that I made in my life Β are totally “change oriented”, sometimes quite violent changes (like deciding to go and live abroad at the age of 18).

Recently I was confronted with one of those life changing moments, work related. My generation was born in an economic environment where work was always available, where people would define themselves with the fact that they were employed, and being employed was more than just a job, meant friends, great colleagues and so on. My parents worked in the public sector as professors, so they never had an actual issue with job stability or safety.

Recently I have had quite an ordeal in terms of career choices, I was forced out of a company that I really liked, I joined an old company that I really disliked to eventually end up in a very small company where I thought I could make a huge difference but unfortunately the mentality and company culture were too narrow. The right man for the wrong job at the wrong time…

As I love to do my job properly, not being able to work like I think I should do, and having to take orders from people that clearly did not know where the hell they were going, started to affect my well being, getting me extremely nervous, losing sleep and generally being unhappy.

This is why since last week I have decided to resign from the position and for the first time in my life I am unemployed by choice with no backup job ready to kick in the following month.

It was not an easy decision for me, but in the end I decided not to endure with this crappy situation. Of course the family resources will be stretched, I have saved a little and I am resolute to take a little sabbatical break from the “rat race”. I need to recharge after 17 years of work non-stop.

Investing-wise nothing much will change, apart from the fact that I will not be saving anymore, or not as much, so the money that I can put into the fund are probably going to be close to zero in the near future. This is not a tragedy as the Long Haul Portfolio will stand a harder test in terms of YoY growth, but I am sure it can do well.

Of course this opens up a lot more opportunities that I could not look into before. I want to start studying Finance again (derivatives and Options mostly), I want to start looking for a possible career change (I can’t be on planes anymore, I have travelled really a LOT), I want to start hanging out with my father and family more (as I was always away for work). It’s all about quality of living in the end, and that was what got me to take this step. I have sacrificed it to get coloured pieces of paper (money), and I missed out on many things. No regrets of course, I am happy at what I did, but now it’s time for a change. πŸ™‚

Finger crossed and let’s hope for the best!

 

P.S.

Career-wise I did change something already turning down a job offer for my usual line of work (International Trade/Business development and Export), and accepted a position at a University in Florence to teach Fashion Sales Management. The position is great but it pays close to nothing, so more “work” will have to be done, but it’s a start, a new opportunity (and the idea that someone is going to call me “Professor” it’s quite intriguing). πŸ™‚

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13 thoughts on “Changes

  1. Sorry to hear the job did not work out Stal. I think you have made a good decision to leave if the conditions were so stressful…your long term health is far more important.

    When one door closes I find two more open up so I wish you good luck in your search for alternative employment and in the meantime enjoy the time off with family and friends!

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    1. Ciao DIY,
      Yes, the situation was quite bad, mostly for the usual self inflicted anguish and pain that I seem to be so good at dishing out on me… But the idea of doing a sub-par work to please the boss kept me going for 6 months but no more than that. There were also attitudes that I could not stand and other things, but when I started losing sleep over it and always being depressed then it’s when I decided I needed to pull the plug. Now (after a week) I feel much better and I am already looking at few possibilities down the line, so let’s hope all goes well… πŸ™‚
      Cia ociao

      Stal

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  2. Good for you. There’s nothing worse then staying somewhere and not being happy. I’ve left high paying jobs in the past because I just didn’t feel good when i was working there. Best of luck Professor πŸ˜‰

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    1. Well, great to see that I am not the only one… People I have been talking to here in Italy keep telling me that I am crazy… Anyhow it’s not so much how other people think, it’s how I feel and to be honest I cannot complan right now. Thanks for the good wishes I will certainly need all the luck that I can get..
      Ciao ciao

      Stal

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  3. it’s probably the right decision! Hope you find something new and fun that will provide you with income and that you enjoy. In the mean time, enjoy the time off!

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    1. Yes that is what I am planning to do, I have been living this first week of unemployment as if I was on holiday, there is no job to come back to of course, but I am very easy at the moment about it… Let’s see what happens, so far so good! πŸ™‚

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    1. Thanks Chris, still trying to make sense of it, but surely I feel much better now (under a mental point of view at least). Fingers crossed and let’s see what the future has in hold for me πŸ™‚
      Ciao ciao
      Stal

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